emo ah.
January 31, 2007 | 10:03 AM
曲：Walking in the Rain - A1
fluctuating emotions. i dont like it at all. and darryn, you wont get anything out of me. i really cnt say, because like i said, its fluctuating. and i hate myself for being like tt. im not fine, but then im okay. sometimes i cnt believe how i can make inspired assumptions tt hurt myself.
i healed, then i suddenly dont know what im doing again. stop, girl, really.
hee. and suddenly im addicted to short entries again.
on a happier note, singapore won 2-1 in the first leg of the finals match against thailand. woots! very controversial, damned drama. but vance and i both enjoyed it. everyone in the team deserves a hug! maybe if i look at noh alam shah's goal again and again i'd feel better.
dumb dumb dumb.velda.
ps. emo entry hor. bear with it.
dui ai tou xiang.
January 30, 2007 | 1:48 AM
曲：对爱投降 – 张惠妹
我不求未来 我只求现在
谁不面对爱情 只有举手投降
你的一分一秒 都能永远
我的心酸都不算
我不求未来 我只求现在
谁不面对爱情 只有举手投降
泪水湿了干了都为了爱
只要你明白 我可以更勇敢
stop, girl.
velda.
football!
January 28, 2007 | 6:10 PM
曲：嵐のまえの静けさ – 嵐
a few hours before hitting the books. dont know why i can wake, actually. haha. had a slack sunday to recharge after all that action on saturday night. woot! havent been to such an exciting football match in ages. i always loved watching singapore in international matches and games, and this one with msia.. hehh, will not miss it for anything.
rmb two years back when singapore played indonesia in the final of the tiger cup. i went with shawn, yong.. and i cnt rmb who, but it was hilarious. this time, it was equally funny. singaporeans really can spout vulgarities off the top of their head man. but besides that, you can see how much they supported their country. was a great feeling to sit in the stadium with 50,000 other people supporting the same group of people. i think the best i felt was not at the end, but when singapore equalised. woah, tt feeling of relief and exhilaration... imagine what the players themselves were feeling.
so the score was 1-1 at end of fulltime and extra time.. and it had to be a movie textbook finish with penalties. we were all at the edge of our seats. when lionel lewis saved the last goal and singapore won 5-4 on penalties, pandemonium broke out. ole ole ole ole.. ole.. ole... i think fireworks would have been really appropriate? haha.
havent taken a neoprint in well, ages. they turned out well, i guess. applaud the japanese for making everyone look good in purikura.
okay, PR today. =) oh yah, i think for IP azhar's damn disappointed in me. sigh. shucks!
when i close my eyes, it means im trying to not think of anything, to put those thoughts out of my head.
velda.
last classical thursday.
January 25, 2007 | 7:14 AM
曲：The Potter's Hand - Hillsong
angry at myself for missing mythbusters on discovery because i forgot about checking the tv guide. ahh! tts why im writing.
finally got the tickets for the match on saturday. cnt wait cnt wait. i really hope singapore win, but my confidence level not very high. but i wont accept anyone's opinion that malaysia will win.
was at the hotel just now, and basically telling everyone there about the match on saturday. they were all not very concerned ah about football, but all wanted to beat me up when i said i was going to watch, and hearing that maybe a curse or two might escape my mouth. chef gary was especially excited lah, even asked me if i watch football during fandi ahmad times. wahlao, i got so old meh..!
joy and i made friends with this german couple sitting at the table next to us in empire. was kind of sweet, the woman suddenly came over and asked me if i was good at using the computer, and wondered if she and her husband could use my apple to view their photos. they then produced their very pretty canon powershot dontknowwhatmodel camera and asked me if i could do something about it. lucky joy had a usb cable, and they managed to view their photos through my iPhoto. then chatted a while with them about singapore and us.. and they were really very interested in what we had to say. thought it was quite cool, they actually even brought chairs over to our table and sat and really listened to us talk. i like! nice experience.
open house tmr as well. vance will not move his butt to go down to my school.
as usual, MS0501's version of whose line is it anyway? cracks me up all the time. everyone's damn funny lah. and to quote azmi:
"hey welcome everyone to whose line is it anyway, the show where everything's made up and the points dont matter. yeah, the points to us are like anne eapen."
sekali she read.
velda.
skyline.
January 22, 2007 | 10:46 PM
曲：Skyline - YUI
tuesday afternoon in the fast food canteen. watching cherri eat through her mcwings, azmi looking at our powerpoint presentation, andre mia. cheiron's last presentation together after two years in this course. somehow a little unwilling to let go, a little lost.. not just because of cheiron, but the thought that the last classical semester is ending in less than three days. no more lectures, no more tutorials, no more sitting in empty classrooms QT-ing.
the sun is shining down today. its a day of lessons, people moving from class to class, chatting with friends, eating lunch. in the midst of all this, a girl sits at a table listening to a song on her earphones, next to her friends, but somehow far away.
i want to fly well i want to fly well tobikata shiranai dake
[skyline] makes you feel this way, i guess. suddenly i felt, yah, it is going to be the time where we spread our wings and fly. perhaps YUI had the same feeling when she was singing this song.
off to class.
velda.
taiyou.no.uta
January 21, 2007 | 8:00 AM
曲：Good-bye Days - YUI
taiyou no uta, or midnight sun, as translated into english.
i first heard the song, good-bye days (click the radioblogclub player --->, its good) by YUI on the radio. was touched by its simplicity yet poignancy because of YUI's voice. when gawain asked if we wanted to watch the movie over at his house, i agreed wholeheartedly. initially it was because [taiyou no uta] has one of my favourite actors in it - tsukamoto takashi.
have this huge calendar of him that i bought before when i was fangirling. haha. never really used it. but 12 gigantic pictures of him. >_<
anw, yanting, joy and i sat in front of gawain's computer, and were blown away. the story was really sweet, YUI was great as amane kaoru, and tsukamoto takashi (fujishino kouji) was.. ahh. just say that the scriptwriter made his character so good i want to go to japan and find kouji-kun now. it was a movie that revolved around music, music that YUI sang really well. now, as i listened to Good-bye Days again while watching the movie, i understood now the poignancy of the lyrics.
かっこよくない優しさ
に会えてよかったよ
im glad i got to know the uncool, but tender side of you. 很高兴见到了你那不酷但温柔的一面。
it was lyrics for kouji-kun, and kouji-kun only. that's why i like the fact that the movie script revolved around the lyrics. it was really a great movie, and all three of us plus gawain were touched by it. really happy tsukamoto takashi had this superb role, really would boost his career. the scene where he wanted to see if she was crying.. the scene when he turned and walked away, wiping away his tears.. and the scene where he was finding the courage to ask her to be his girlfriend. wth! ive never seen him in roles like tt before. damn good damn good damn good. one of the best japanese movies ive watched - next to sekachu, of course.
nice?
coughing still =( who ask me greedy eat those prawn crackers in cherri's house. argh.
velda.
accidentally in love?
January 19, 2007 | 11:53 PM
曲：Accidentally in Love - Counting Crows
this song makes me smile. well, baby, i surrender to the strawberry ice-cream.
i was wrong. あなたは私の星の金貨。joy's [守護天使はどこ？] will be matched by my [星の金貨].
i really need to know where that drama went to. cnt rmb who i lent it too, ahh! so if anyone has my shin.hoshi no kinka, please, return me ah.
woke up feeling better after the fever last night. wasnt feeling very good the whole of friday at all, got dizzy on the mrt and almost walked into the path of a taxi. haha. darryn and andy still dare to ask the magic 8-ball whether i will collapse on my way home. if i did i think you two will be guilty like hell ah. haha. >_< but a couple of panadols kicked the fever into oblivion, so i guess im better now.
overnight instalment número cuatro at cherri's house later again. cheiron is always so busy one meh, tt we need to meet at night at siglap summore. haha. well. maybe we'll finish in time to catch a dvd movie or something.
i like slacking on a saturday morning. anecdotes about the class and mr azhar amuses my mom a lot, i realise. and i just had a damn funny conversation with andre on msn:
.je m'appelle andre - says:
yo yo
velda___ somehow you opened my eyes. says:
yoyo wassup
velda___ somehow you opened my eyes. says:
haha
.je m'appelle andre - says:
wd time we gg cherri's crib?
velda___ somehow you opened my eyes. says:
1030 meeting at the suntec convention that busstop man
.je m'appelle andre - says:
alright yaw
velda___ somehow you opened my eyes. says:
see you, homie
.je m'appelle andre - says:
later dawg
very lame, but was very spontaneous. was laughing over my laptop.
velda.
thoughts.
January 18, 2007 | 10:47 AM
曲：True to Your Heart - Stevie Wonder & 98 Degrees
funny eh, in the busiest time of the year, i suddenly have the urge to write. my eyes are closing, but i feel like putting my thoughts down in words.
staring at a computer screen for more than 2 hours at a stretch can make your eyes hurt.
jordan chan always sings stuff that make you reach out to him; eason chan is just the best.
chef calvin likes macdull.
fann wong is really pretty; gurmit singh looks like my dad.
american idol is irritating if all you hear are people trying to kid themselves.
nutella is good!
HL milk sounds like a good idea now.
mou sugu desu ne.
何を考えるのが分かんない、でもこのあなたが好き。
happy times are when i go to bed wth a smile on my face. like now. ohh yah, and that crucial match is on the 27th instead of the 23rd, yay. ^^
velda.
next tues.
January 17, 2007 | 8:37 AM
曲：瞳の中のGALAXY – 嵐
came home just in time to watch the last ten minutes of the match between singapore and indonesia at the national stadium tonight. wanted to go watch, but curse pr! ahh. anw, we drew 2-2 with indonesia, so we just kicked them in the butt and are now through to the semi-finals! its a fixture i have been wanting, and wanting, and wanting to watch since ages ago. singapore vs malaysia. woot! right here in singapore. *jumps around*
and then i realised something. semi-finals at 8pm. next tuesday. we. have. mmr. revision. lecture. my heart just sank lah. i really really really x100 want to go watch the match. and mmr lecture just happens to be a revision lecture which is doubly important because i havent understood more than 20% of what has been taught so far. and so im considering. you wont believe how much i want to watch this match. haha. country over school lah. tmr in school if just one person encourages me to go, ill shoot off to get tickets.
anws, why is everything happening next tuesday? oscars nominations coming out around then too, and i hope ninomiya kazunari gets a nomination for supporting actor for his role in letters from iwo jima. seems like the movie is really getting good reviews everywhere, especially nino's role. many people are saying how well he did, that he seems like what the whole story for letters... actually pivot on. =) reallly hope he gets a nomination.
nino as saigo in letters from iwo jima
off to write pr stuff. am procrastinating.
velda.
hoshinokinka. end of sem.
January 16, 2007 | 9:14 AM
曲：你那麼愛他 – 李聖傑 & 林隆璇
was looking through my old sketch book and i found a story i wrote in chinese. it was a brothers grimm story- and the basis of three greast dramas - hoshi no kinka I, II and III.
There was once upon a time a good and pious little girl whose father and mother were dead, and she was so poor that she no longer had a room to live in, or bed to sleep in, and at last she had nothing else but the clothes she was wearing and a little bit of bread in her hand which some charitable soul had given her.
And as she was thus forsaken by all the world, she went forth into the open country, trusting in the good God. Then a poor man met her, who said, ah, give me something to eat, I am so hungry. She handed him the whole of her piece of bread, and said, may God bless you, and went onwards.
Then came a child who moaned and said, my head is so cold, give me something to cover it with. So she took off her hood and gave it to him. And when she had walked a little farther, she met another child who had no jacket and was frozen with cold. Then she gave it her own, and a little farther on one begged for a frock, and she gave away that also.
At length she got into a forest and it had already become dark, and there came yet another child, and asked for a shirt, and the good little girl thought to herself, it is a dark night and no one sees you, you can very well give your shirt away, and took it off, and gave away that also.
And as she so stood, and had not one single thing left, suddenly some stars from heaven fell down, and they were nothing else but hard smooth pieces of money, and although she had just given her shirt away, she had a new one which was of the very finest linen. Then she put the money into it, and was rich all the days of her life.
i dont know why i like it. in the japanese drama, they romanticised it and called the money tt fell from the sky 「星の金貨」- hoshi no kinka, or coins from the stars.
僕は君の星の金貨。
on another note: as we near the end of our last classical semester, i just sort of realised on the bus today that our last lecture, is really our last lecture. In april, TEP kicks in, and we will all be in school but not together in class.
remember the first time we wore formal business attire?
or the first major group presentation?
the first day we touched the camera,
or the first day we had to report on time for filming?
i remember how excited we got when we heard ICA presentation was to be in business attire, and how we were busy going out buying G2000 etc. stuff. i remember how tense we were before presenting [cereality], and the night before, in the library writing out our script for presentation. i remember when we first had the chance to touch the camera in ms shelley cole's lesson, and puzzled over what was white balance and tape preset and everything. and i remember how worried we were that our group members wont come in on time because mr azhar threatened to not allow us to sign out the camera if we were late.
the memories are what sustain us. smile.
velda.
cheiron tribute.
January 13, 2007 | 8:21 AM
曲；PIECES OF A DREAM - Chemistry
am busy compiling our marketing report but decided that i too needed some time off to relax and slack a bit. was just thinking of what i should blog about, then though.. yeaps, perhaps maybe cheiron.
cheiron was first set up in the second semester i was in the school, around october? of 2005. at that time, ms soo was randomly separating our class into groups for the first project of the semester. note the word randomly. in the first sem, A²DVAnce was my group, with andre, azmi, amy and dinesh. now, for the second semester, in ms soo's really random (picture blindly picking names off the namelist) selection process, me, azmi, andre and dinesh's names got called. by this time, half the class were staring at ms soo wondering how the hell she managed to get four out of five names from our previous group into one group again this sem. then she mentioned cherriann as the fifth member of cheiron.
so cheiron was formed. me, andre, azmi, cherri, and dinesh. we initially had a problem looking for a name for the group, and cheiron got picked as we were randomly (note randomly again) flipping through a greek mythology book for our first ms kannan ica. i think choices like eros and apollo came out also. cheiron is the name of the centaur, the most famous centaur in greek mythology who was known for being wise and kind. he was the teacher of jason and hercules, and other gods and demi-gods of mount olympus. >_<
click for wonderful insight video. andre, i just think that this was a great video. andre did this in the middle of one night late 2005 i think. we interviewed my uncle for our management project, and this was our insight.
... so the story goes on. as the second semester passed day by day, troubles began to brew for cheiron.. different kinds i think - haha. it was in cheiron i realised the value of 12am-5am - our magic hours, ironcially. so we lost a class member and a group member on the way. in the third semester, our class was split into many many groups for various different projects, and cheiron grew apart.
but in the 2nd semester of our second year, fate (haha!) brought cheiron back together again, now with me, andre, azmi and cherri. and we had fun. we grew closer, spent quality time together, and shared our experiences. and we care for each other enough to put in our best all the time. and cheiron are the ones that make me laugh till i cry all the time. overnight meetings at cherri's house have reached their third instalment, now i know her dining room chair like i know vance liao. and her toilet is my best buddy. haha.
just a tribute to cheiron, because among others, they are the ones who also made me feel grateful for what i have around me.
in true simin fashion：
velda.
happy moments.
January 11, 2007 | 10:16 PM
曲：妹妹 - 光良
okay, im useless. i cnt stay unhappy for any amount of time ehs. initially thought maybe can gek emo, and start appearing in school in black, chain smoking by lighting my next cigarette with the butt of the previous one. but velda isnt really like that bah. =)
so im writing, about the happy things that have happened over the past week.
MOOgle finished filming! and the interstitial came out quite well. and though some shots might have disappeared, at least we finished filming and got through the problems, and i can take some time off here on a friday afternoon to blog. love this emo shot of us, simin was actually on the brink of laughing, darryn look like some siaokia vampire, mawar and me dont know emo what, and siyu half-depressed.
my aunt came back! the left one ah. suiyi hasnt been back from melbourne in quite a while now, and im glad i finally got the chance to see her. though she's back there now, sitting in front of her PowerBook stressing over work, we had stupid laughing times together those few days she was around. coca restaurant in ngee ann city, with really good food and a great family around. because suiyi's the seventh in the family, so she show seven fingers, and siyi show four fingers... you get the picture.
i love this picture so much. my ah gong wearing my scarf! this is the first time ive ever seen him so happy. what a shot to treasure lah. we had a lot of fun that day at coca; everyone was crazily mad and cracking lame jokes. must be the wine, for 15 or 16 of us went through 6 bottles of italian wine in the course of the dinner. so everyone was smiling, and i was literally humming on my way out.
crab never tasted this good. really. now i know why these type of crabs has to be eaten just steamed. sri lanka crab can stand one side man, seriously. haha. vance and i just zam-med about one full crab by ourselves. woot!
yup, somehow you opened my eyes. i never expected that to happen, but it did. now tell me what i should do about it.
velda.
January 6, 2007 | 2:24 AM
このブログは今から閉めます。今の私、たのしい事書けないから。
可能是累了，因為每次一爬起來就再跌倒，連淚都不想擦了。
mei tian xing lai, yi xiang dao you bu xiang mian dui de shi qing yao mian dui de shi hou, zheng tian de xing qing hao bu qi lai... wo bu xiang yao le.
もうつかれた。
嘘ですよね。
January 4, 2007 | 8:21 AM
曲：When There Was Me and You - Vanessa Anne Hudgens
darryn, yah, it will be in japanese. was laughing at how ironic my previous entry is. and im not gek-ing emo k. haha.
裏切りって何なんですかね。「私が君を裏切ったって感じましたか。」．．．だから、本当に何なんですかね。こういう感じですか。最初に聞いた時、まだ彼女の事を心配したよ。私はどういう顔で二人を会いますかって。でも、シーイちゃんの言う通りですね。「最初これを決めたとき、もうあなたの事を考えないんだよ。なんで今までこの女を心配しますか。」本当なのか分かんないですけど、一つの事を分かったんだ。もう疲れたって、自分の事を考えなさいって。
長い時間を考えたかもしれない。本当に迷ったかもしれない。でも、最後の決めた事が真実です。今の私は、まだこれ信じられないですね。まだ時間必要なの、わたしは。今あなたを見て、「この状況であなたにとって大丈夫なの」と思いますね。最初から絶対何が起るとも思ってたよね。だから、私はあなたから聞いたとき、「自分の立場ってなんだ」も思ったですよ。そんなに大切でもないかしら。
昔彼に向いて同じ言葉を言ってた。
「もう、いい。」
もういいよ，本当に。勘弁してよ。
online translator cnt make it one lah.
ricky. kokchang. sharon. berry. ford. kokaun. kent. marc.
velda.
omotta koto.
January 1, 2007 | 1:43 AM
曲：显微镜下的爱情 – 黄义达
somehow when i listened to this song, a lot of 感触。bear with me, that the first post of the year, has to be in japanese.
何が本当の事って、全然分かんないね。彼女との関係も、もう分かんないんだ。でも、二人を信じたいです。なぜなら、友達ですから。彼女は私にとって、この一年内に私大切をした人です。今の関係はちょっと変わったけど，私を助けた人です。だから、この友情を大切にしなきゃ。
でも、本当にありがとう。皆はそうも思えないかもしれないけど、君は私の事まだ心配すると信じたい。実は、あなたの事今までまだ好きです。私にとって私の事一番気になった人、私の事一番知ってる人、やはりあなたですよ。あと、私の泣き顔とか、弱い面も全部見てた人。もうすぐ一年になりますよ、覚えてるのかな。去年三月のとき、幸せだっただよ。あなたが側にいて、何でもできるって感じました。世界がそんな美しいと思わなかった。ちょっとヤバいですけど、でも本当の事。会えて良かった。あなたって良かった。
done. write a few lines can write until headache. my japanese still needs help leh. i bet the grammar a bit cnt make it. >_< heh.
the bombs in bangkok made me worry about billy again. haa, but seems like he's fine and everything. a bit worrying for peninsula bangkok though. tourist numbers confirm fall more. at least, i think he's in peninsula. woah, then same company with calvin meh? not very sure though.
ending off with a cute picture from the christmas party.
recorder and kimjio?!
velda.
